I was reading my past articles when a friend of mine stumbled upon something. He told me about a long worded letter in Filipino. It was all about me using horrible Tagalog to reply to an insult directed towards me on that article.
<user name removed> on September 10, 2011 at 2:16 AM
Sa kadahilanang hindi ka tunay na matatas sa inyong pambansang wika — a, higit pa riyan — sa ATING pamamaraan ng pananalita, o mas angkop pang sabihin ang pamamaraan ng pamumuhay rito mismo, hindi ko masasabing may alam ka nga ukol sa estado ng ating bayan. Isa kang tampalasang estrangherong nagpapanggap na nagtataguyod ng karangalan ng Pilipinas at nagkukunwaring minamahal ito sa kabila ng mga kapintasan nito.
Nakikita kong wala kang ikinukubling binhi ng pag-asa sa iyong kalooban; panlilinlang din iyon, sa aking palagay. Para sa mga taong naniniwalang may alam ka.
Humihingi ako ng paumanhin, ginoo, para sa kahabaan ng aking mapapait na wikain (na tiyak akong hindi mo lubusang naunawaan). Gayunpaman, hindi ko ninanais na humingi ng patawad para sa mga salitang binitawan ko.
Para sa mga naniniwala sa kanya, hayaan ninyong ulitin:
Mga hangal kayo.
Dito nagwawakas ang aking liham para sa isang dakilang ipokrito
My first thought was:What SHOULD I say? I hated that letter because of what was in it. Just because I wasn’t the best speaker or writer in Filipino, I was not allowed to give my two cents. Just because I’m not as literate or skillful with the pen as Rizal, my idol, I was doomed to be forever silenced. His letter summed up what many Filipinos think about people like me. He, or she, made it very clear that my entire argument was wrong all because of one simple technicality. He wanted everyone to know that I am not a Filipino, but rather, a foreigner in my own land. A hypocrite.
But I’m not.
I’m not a hypocrite. Nor is anyone else who believes in what I wrote. I decided to write an article and include his/her letter, not because of spite, but because I wanted to end this. I want to end the anger against “Ingliseros.” I wanted to prove that just because I am an Inglisero doesn’t mean I’m a foreigner. It doesn’t mean I’m against my own race; I’m just as Filipino as anyone else.
People keep on saying that just because I can’t speak Filipino means I’m not one. That’s like saying a mute person is less of a human.
I think I speak for every person our culture labels as “Inglisero” when I say “I’m sick of it.” I’m sick of being typecasted by a race of people where everyone does the same. People say this is bad when in reality, they’re doing the same thing; they just hide it better.
Whenever I walk out of my house, I don’t see kids playing sipa. I see them playing basketball and badminton. They’re not any less Filipino. When I ride in the jeep, I don’t hear traditional music playing on the radio. Instead, I hear “gangsta rap”, a copied style. Are they any less Filipino? My tita once told me she didn’t like to eat Balut because it was gross. Did that make her any less Filipino?
Our reasoning is shallow. We’re hurt by people who go against the norm. When people go against the tide, we push them back into place. We don’t like nonconformists and we’re afraid of change. When somebody gives us a fact, something that is against our common belief, we tell them to shut up.
Don’t believe me?
Then what’s the problem with anyone speaking in English? What damage will it do to our country? I firmly believe that you can’t erase your national identity because you speak English. I don’t think you’ll lose your nationality because of a language.
We’re always mad whenever a foreigner says something bad about our country. We call it racism and a hate crime. We say they know nothing of our country. This was another viewpoint of another article. I said we should take it as it is. We should change. Call me a hypocrite for replying to the letter because I’m well aware of what I’m doing. And from what I see, I see prejudice. I don’t see the truth. I’m not an idiot, I’m not any less Filipino than you are. What one person said summed up the feelings of many people towards people like me. I’m asking for equality.
I’m not demanding he be called a “Persona non grata” but rather, I want him (or her), and everyone else with the same mindset, to change. When we fought against the Spaniards for our land, we applauded Rizal for his demands of equality. We used his poem “Sa Aking Mga Kabata” as a document that showed his love for his country and language.
But did he?
He didn’t know write it*. He was skillful in his adult years, crafting many stories and books, but he was trained in Spanish; just like English is now. Back then, with the many dialects and languages in the Philippines, with absolutely no “official” language, how could he, a rich mestizo, be so sure that Tagalog would be the new language back when he was still a young child? There are so many mistakes, K should be C and “kalayaan” was “kalahayan”, that some historians say it is nothing more than propaganda.
All I know is that I have faith in Rizal. I don’t care whether or not he wrote it. The thought it still there. His patriotism is still evident in his other works. I won’t judge.
And you’ll say the same thing of this. You’ll say that this is nothing more than a lie and a hateful rant. You’ll skip to the comments and insult me. You’ll call me “anti-rizal”, “traitor”, and “hypocrite.” I won’t fight. As I said before, you’ll only be proving me right.
But if you don’t, if you accept what I say, then I’m happy that someone took me seriously. I hope that more people would see this and say “Tama siya” or “He’s right.” And if you do, well, salamat po.
*Due to this being controversial, I have a link to Wikipedia and a paper.
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