My love-hate emails to Tommy continued…
Guy, tigil na natin ‘to. Jr showed the letter to his mom. Alam na ng mga anak ko. Kailangan ako ng pamilya ko. Mahal ko sila. Sana maunawaan mo. Sana huling communication na natin ‘to. Ngayon mo lang na realize ‘yan pagkahuli ni Trudy sa ’yo?
Ba’t ‘di mo na realize ‘yan nung nahuli ka ni Jr, nung umatras ako unang gabi natin, nung nakiusap mga kapatid mo sa ’yo?
Just wait, honey…that’s what I feel too…I’m preparing myself…you know it’s us against the world…Ito ang preparation mo, breakup thru text?
Just to concentrate on my review…but I can’t…you’re on my system…can’t live without you even in my mind, dreams, thought … nung nabuking bigla ako nawala sa system mo at si Trudy pa nag-text. Obvious na pinagtutulungan n’yo akong bastusin.
Why do I love you so much, Guy? I can’t imagine life without you…you bring endless joy in my heart…now that I have you, all I want is to make you happy…I’m careful now not to hurt you nor touch your sensitivity…I love you so much… Imagine the gravity of the hurt that you’ve been causing me since Jan 4.
I’m yours, honey, my life, my heart, my soul…ikamamatay ko pag nawala ka…I love you so much. Ako yata ang magpapakamatay sa kawalanghiyaan mo, hayop ka!!!
You’ll always be my joy…you’re always worthy to me…I love you so much more than anything in this world…and I just want to stop everything and be with you always…this is not lust but true love for you…Puro ka kalibugan kaya.
…I’ll never let you go, promise…Isang buking lang ni Trudy bigla akong itinapon na parang gamit na condom or dinura na parang chewing gum.
I miss you so much, honey, while driving…you are so beautiful, Guy…I love you so much…Kaya pinalitan mo agad van mo para matanggal na ako sa isip at puso mo, pati cellphone mo pinalitan mo na.
…I love you, hon…I’ll stay with you beyond forever…thanks for coming back to me…He he beyond forever, ha? Kung di alam ni Trudy.
…ILY, honey…sometimes I thought bakit nagbiro tadhana sa’kin nang ganito…wala naman akong nilokong babae…Ako lang ang niloko mo, hayop ka!!! Ang sakit sakit ng ginawa mo sa akin, Tommy!!!
After Lady Antebellum concert, you dropped yourself on the floor near the door of our hotel room and you didn’t want to leave until I talked to you. I ignored you kasi after the concert and throughout our trip going back to the hotel dahil you ignored me during the entire concert because you were scared that we might get caught on the camera and be seen on the big screen. Niloloko mo na pala ako nun. I wanted to call it quits na talaga dahil hindi importante sa ‘yo mga importante sa akin. I should have done it.
‘Di na sana ako nasasaktan nang ganito ngayon.
Wala kang nilokong babae…ako lang…ang sinabi mong pinakamahal mo noong una mo pa lang ako makita. Ang galing mo manloko talaga.
How can you pray for a good life knowing na may nadehado kang babae?
How could you pray, simba, rosary with me tapos niloloko mo pala ako all along?
Masaya naman three years natin, ni wala tayong pinag-awayan. Why can’t we end it in good terms?
Ginawa mo lahat ng panloloko magtagal lang tayo.
‘Di ko pa napapanood ang mga concerts that we watched that I videotaped, tinapon o deleted n’yo na SD card.
Gusto mo ng tahimik na buhay, patahimikin mo rin sana ako.
Manloloko sa lahat ng manloloko!!!
Hindi ka na sana ipinanganak.
You’re a very terrible person!!!
Congenital lack of masculinity.
Napakasama mong tao. Makarma ka sana beyond your wildest dreams.
Hindi ko akalain na ang taong pinakaminahal ko ang nagbigay sa akin ng pinakamatinding sakit at pinakamaraming luha.
Of all the pain, the greatest pain is the pain that Tommy caused me.
If you were two times as smart, you’d still be stupid.
You’re such a mistake, a big big mistake.
You must be the arithmetic man; you add trouble, subtract pleasure, divide attention, and multiply ignorance.
Why don’t you slip into something comfortable like a coma?
Were you always an idiot or just when I was around?
You’re so stupid, brain surgeons are having a hard time.
Your existence is just a joke.
If I had a penny for every brain cell you have, I’d have nothing.
I’m jealous of all the people that have not met you.
I was born with not enough middle fingers to let you know how I feel about you.
Roses are red, violets are blue, I have ten fingers, and the middle ones are for you, a***le.
You’re nothing but a cross between an ape and a human. Kaya pala mahilig ka sa saging.
I’ll make sure ‘di ka na makakatingin nang diretso sa mga taong nakapaligid sa ‘yo.
I bet your brain feels as good as new knowing that you never use it. Ay!!! Brainless ka nga pala.
I told you sasampalin kita hanggang mamaga mga kamay ko, yes, I’ll slap you with both hands. On second thought, h’wag na lang as shit stains.
If laughter is the best medicine, your face must be curing the world.
It looks like your face caught on fire and someone tried to put it out with a hammer.
Let’s play house. You be the door and I’ll slam you.
Stupidity is not a crime so you’re free to go.
Calling you an idiot would be an insult to all stupid people.
You’re so ugly, you scared the crap out the toilet.
If stupidity is a bliss, you must be the happiest person on earth.
You’re a living proof that manure can grow legs and walk.
I have more respect with my smallest fart than with your whole being.
If shit was music, you’d be an orchestra.
I believe in respect for the dead. In fact, I can only respect you when you’re dead.
Are you always stupid or our three years was a special occasion?
Shock me! Say something intelligent.
When I look into your eyes, I can see thru the back of your head.
I’m already visualizing the duct tape on your mouth.
You don’t know how I miss you so much.
I couldn’t believe I listened to David Pomeranz’s Born For You and Old Songs at the same time.
Hon, isn’t there really a way that we can break up amicably, with smiles on both our faces and say thanks for the beautiful memories rather than sorry and goodbye?
I am listening to If You Walked Away From Me Today by David Pomeranz.
Everyone’s entitled to be stupid, but you’re abusing the privilege.
I’d like to kick you in the face til your false teeth falls off, but why should I improve your look?
I don’t know why you’re so stupid, but it really works.
You’re a living proof that man can live without a brain.
Oh duwag oh duwag si Tommy, ay saksakan ng duwag.
Hinihintay mo lang pala mabuko ka ni Trudy. Sana nakuha ko pa mga gamit ko.
Luging-lugi talaga ako sa ‘yo.
Napilitan ka lang pala sa akin, why did you have to take advantage of me?
Ang tangi kong pag-ibig ang nanloko sa akin. Hindi ako maharap dahil saksakan ng duwag.
Ang tangi kong pag-ibig ay napakatange.
H’wag mo idahilan na gusto mo peace with your family ang kaduwagan mo.
Pupunta si mama sa Pilipinas at magtutuos sila ng mama mo.
There’s only one thing that keeps me from breaking you in half. I don’t want two of you around.
If you got hit by a bus, I would be driving that bus.
You need a high five in the face with a chair.
Life is so short and so is your pe…s.
Acting like a d*ck won’t make yours any bigger.
Your d*ck is like a land mine; small, hidden, and explodes on contact.
You’re a loser; I’m a goddess. Any questions?
You’re the reason why God created the middle finger.
What was your prayer request at Fatima?
Bakit kailangan kang mangyari sa buhay ko, Tommy?
Sayang crocodile tears mo.
You’re a master in your own house, the doghouse.
You’re such a big wart.
Pinagsabay mo kami para makarami ka sa akin?
Isa kang kahihiyan sa buhay ko, Tommy.
Umatras ako nung unang gabi, hayop ka!!!
Sisiguraduhin ko ‘di ka na magiging masaya.
‘Di ka nahihiya, asawa mo naglilinis ng kalat mo. Walang hiya ka kasi.
Hinintay pa talagang ang asawa ang makabuko. Kung hindi, tuluy tuloy ang panloloko mo.
‘Di ka pa marunong magsinungaling n’yan, ha.
Tanggap ka lang nang tanggap.
You took advantage of my weakness.
Sarili mo lang inisip mo.
Ang tapang mo magsabay, akala mo gifted.
Haay naku, sayang lang ang mga iniluha ko sa ‘yo.
Haay ang lalaking pinakaminahal ko, wala palang kwenta.
Naalala ko nung 2012 tinanong kita ano gagawin mo kung malaman ni Trudy. Sabi mo punta ka na dito.
Sabi lang pala ‘yun para magtagal tayo.
Tapos pinagsasabay mo kami.
Kailangan mo ako lokohin para mag-umpisa tayo.
Tapos sabi mo nila**i lang kita?
Sabi mo hinahabol kita?
Kahit kelan ‘di kita hinabol, unggoy!!!
Binasura mo ako dahil sa pagkaduwag mo.
Pangit pala lahi ni Trudy, ano?
Di bale, kakampi ko na sila.
These email messages that were sent to Tommy’s work and to the email address used for the Dearest Guy between February 9 and April
22 2015 were left unresponded. I felt like I was talking to a wall so I stopped.
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