I am still remembering, “I love you,” means I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do things. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. It means that I know the secret of your spires and do not judge you by them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight and suffer for what we have and that I love you that much not to let go.
And I don’t expect you to be perfect because I know I’m not perfect either. I will make you smile when you make me happy. I will yell at you when you make me mad. I will miss you when you’re not here.
I gave you a part of me that you can break. And, you kept on breaking it. I guess it’s not that bad at all. For you are the best I’d ever had. Since all I really want is to be with you. Being with you gives me a feeling, as if, I mattered too.
We only live once. We only die once. So, when will I stop dying for you every day? When will I stop dying for the things I really have no control over? I can’t even account for the tears I shed for you … not even if I could count them.
But because love is unconditional and relationships are not, I will continue to embrace the heartache. I will continue to die for you every day until the day where you finally decide to either stay and love me right or kill me outright by parting ways with me. Or perhaps, I will stop dying for you when I have decided to strip you of your power to hurt me, on that one fine day where I finally decide to give up. Though, I fear, I will not know that day has come because I will not stop trying.
Every true love is a story of more unexpected transformation. If we are the same person before and after we loved, that means we have not loved enough.
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