A Letter to My Lover, My Student
To My Dear Student and Lover:
Meeting you at first was really unforgettable. You were a hardworking and a diligent student of mine. I was impressed by your eagerness to learn. You really have utmost respect for your teacher and you gave me importance.
First, it was all about teacher-student relationship, but as time passed by, when you made me your private tutor, I realized that we had a lot in common and age is not a barrier for a good relationship.
I am a lot older than you. I just came out of a long relationship that failed in the end, but you were there. You were there to keep me company as well as cheer me up. I shared with you my problems and you said you like being with older women because they have more experience and only an older woman could understand you.
You also shared your problems with me and I know that you felt a lot better because I was there as well. And so we fell in love.
I know that people might raise eyebrows and find it hard to accept us. You are 21 years old and I am 35 yrs old. You have a bright future ahead of you and you can still meet a lot of girls in your young age. Starting a loving relationship with you is full of challenges and sometimes I wonder if I should just give up. I don’t want you to see me getting a lot older than you. You are sporty and I know that only a young woman can keep up with you.
I remember the times when you were there to listen and give me friendly advice. It was easy to talk about my other problems, with you. It was free-flowing, unrestrained, not thinking if I may hurt you or not. We were friends, brothers and sisters, confidantes. But alas we had too much of a good thing, and we crossed the boundary beyond friendship. We admitted loving each other, but we knew from the start that things are not going to be easy.
I know that this is wrong, so let me be the one to tell you : Let’s just be friends. Let me just be there to support you whenever you need someone to guide you. I don’t want to lose you because I want to keep you forever.
When we continue our romantic relationship, I know that there is going to be a goodbye in the end. We can still save whatever that is left. Let’s throw away the frustrations and heartaches. Let’s step back, and go back to the beginning. And continue the beautiful friendship we have. Let’s start from there again, so we can be happy once more.
That’s the only way we can preserve love, beauty and respect. That is embodied in a red rose. The red rose which reminds me of you. I want it to stay alive and remain beautiful, and not wither or die. I want to preserve our beautiful friendship.
I know that there is a much suitable woman for you and damn, is she going to be lucky to have you. I guess we met in a wrong time. If only we could turn back the hands of time, I wished that our age is much closer.
Whatever happens, I will always love and care for you. You will always have a special place in my heart, and that will last forever.
I will continue to love you, maybe in a different level, but I love you just the same.
I will always be here whenever you need me.
From your Loving Teacher