On Being a Full-time Nanay Abroad
It’s been five years since I left my work in Pinas in order for me, my husband and my kids to be together. To be far from my kids’ dad is not easy so I decided to give up my work and even leave my father back home. I need to complete my own family . . . my kids need to see their dad everyday…play with him…study with him…bond with him…grow with him – the main reasons why I need to stay in the place where I can’t just do the things I’ve been used to. Ya, not easy…SACRIFICE is the word. Though, I could say…it’s worth it.
It was an emotional struggle for me back then. When I first arrived in Middle East, I thought t’was a dream come true. Maybe in a sense because we are all together…my hubby, kids and me. But that also meant giving up what I want for myself. Being a full time mom here is different. As a Pinay Mom…I would say, it’s more fun in Pinas…nothing compares because there’s no place like home. I’ve been missing home badly. I am missing the things I used to do independently…work, decide and earn for myself. I missed working in both school and office. Though being a full time mom is already having an unretirable work, still it’s different. I would say, staying at home as a mom is difficult than staying in the office to work for eight hours. Much more in a different country. But gaining for myself is another story ^_^. Though contented of my family, I just can’t help but long for my family back home especially my tatay. I couldn’t just complete the happiness I should have for myself. But I have no choice but to live the life that God has given to me. . . and the one that I have chosen. Being a full-time mom is one of the highest paying jobs I know… since the payment is pure love….but sometimes, I get bored holding a vacuum cleaner and washing white socks. Just sometimes ^_^. . . how I wish to go back to work
Being a mom here requires 100% patience and understanding. It’s difficult because being in Inday mode everyday is no joke. But thank goodness for the internet, I still can afford to write and read blogs after the inday session or before hitting the bed.I am thankful in a sense that through the net, I still find myself ALIVE. I still can afford to watch my Grey’s Anatomy and other TV series faves, scan new books of Mitch Albom, Paulo Coelho, Nicholas Sparks, watch videos of my fave artists in You Tube, especially the string covers of Tyler Ward and Boyce Avenue. I can still update myself about education, new trends, new movies, new menu to try, surf for my kids’ homeworks, watch Budoy and other shows back home from ABS, TV5, GMA7, ANC, Solar Entertainment and of course FB-ing. Thank you internet because I can still communicate with long lost friends and batchmates through FB, YM, Skype. I am thankful that through internet, me and my kids are still able to talk and see tatay. Though a hug can’t just be done, but at least he can hear my kids’ laughter and see them grow somehow. I just coudln’t imagine life in the Middle East without the internet. Without it, life will be totally boring, minds and emotions somehow will be partly paralyzed. It’s not that net is the priority…nope! Family matters much and FIRST….but can’t just deny as a mom far from Pinas, I really need the NET ^_^.
So, Internet. . . thank you…macbook, android, iphones, BBerry, ipad and guitars…thank you for completing my stay as a full time mom in the Mid East