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“Memory Lane” (Because you never forget the “first”)

About Sky

A call center associate, A graduate school student, An inconsistent blogger and a life long seeker of how it is to be human. -believes that at twenty-something, I'm still a kid who doesn't get enough sleep when I need it and gets too much when I don't. I talk too much and write too little but wish I talked less and wrote more instead.People keeps telling me I'm loving all the wrong persons but I never regret it and I never will. I want to do something great with my life but I still don't know what that is exactly, searching for that right kind of passion but staying calm, cool and collected .

One depressive afternoon when I was feeling like I don’t know what to do with my life, I don’t know what I want and where I want life to lead me through, I found myself opening an old box that has all my high school stuffs and with a blink of an eye some bunch of papers in two regular LBC plastic caught my attention. Then, I just found myself scanning through some those letters – old stuffs – I can’t explain the feeling of running my fingers through this letters again, after like what? 7 years? The tactile feeling of flipping through sheets of papers and reading the lines in those papers with margins indicating how young the writer of those letters was back then—

Well things had changed. You’ve grown up – we’ve grown up ( my height is not included hahaha) – perhaps we didn’t share anymore the same perspectives that we once used to, and that’s fine, I’ve always believe that’s part of changes. I’ve seen you’ve been appreciating Paulo Coelho books and, probably that’s the only thing I knew about you. Now, thanks to FB it did quite reminds me of you once in a while, at the back of my mind, I hope that you still believe in destiny, in replying to messages and that there is such thing as true love.

Oh no please don’t get me wrong. I am writing this not because I am still in love with you nor for the reason that I am still not over you… well I guess its  true that you never forget the “first” —and perhaps, I just want to celebrate through writing that young intimate love that we once shared and that experience of a lifetime that guides me into every relationship that I have been to and that I will have in the future.

The memory of you always inspires me to dream and to always love at my best and today. And though I know that I can take the bus ride and go drop down right in your place, I just decided to feel the air and feel the power of love that never fails to make me strive to be a better person.

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  • niki

    y r shoe boxes oftentimes used as containers for love-gone mementos? 😀

    i have my souvenirs in a shoe box also (at least the things that can fit inside it. others are outside the shoe box). i wanted to throw them away before to try to forget my 1st..let him go while love was there..even feigned amnesia of the years we were together..but as years went by, i’m thankful i kept them.for they were good reminders that yes, im capable of loving and being loved.that those were years of unadulterated love of younger times.

    your article made me smile as it strolled me back to my own story..and just like you im reminded about him through a social network,too and “I can take the bus ride and go drop down right in his(your) place” also…just so nice to take a walk down the memory lane once in a while.

    thanks for sharing:)

  • mahinay

    it was probably the novelty of that feeling that makes it special…
    it will always bring a smile in our hearts

  • daphne

    me naman my then boyfriend, now my husband turned over to me all the letters and greeting cards his ex gfs gave to him.. he wanted me to dispose them but i opted to keep everything for the sole reason that i wanted to give respect to these lovely girls who took the time and gave their sincerity as they wrote each word so lovingly when they were still going out with him..we’re already 12 yrs married with 2 adorable boys and those letters are handed to me just a year after we were offically bf-gf.. obviously the letters are way older than our marriage and years ahead before we began dating..i love how simple, pure, and sincere they were written..the childhood love is so playful yet has its own passion and intensity..its has photos too..and surprisingly, i never felt any jealousy or insecurity..the girls are all pretty and equally intelligent..no wonder, my husband had fallen for them even before he came to know me..

  • crissy :)

    sakin naman nasa loob ng shoe box 🙂

  • June

    Yun ex ko din fter 9 years after our brk up tingo nya p din mga sulat & regalo ko sa knya. Am 5 years married and with 1 kid na at this year ikakasal n sya nsa knya p din kya mga yun?? Nku sana tinapon na nya kkhiya haha syempre inlove p ko sa knya mga time n yun and bata p kmi hahaha