That Song
It was just an ordinary Thursday in the office. Sitting and thinking, staring at the monitor, I was busily finishing stuffs that ought to be submitted already when suddenly I heard a familiar song. I was, for a moment, just blankly listening. A face was formed within my thoughts. Moments and memories of happiness intruded my mind. It was our song. I miss him.
I was so teary-eyed then. It’s really funny though how a certain song can change you and your whole attitude for a time. In an instant, thoughts about the man that I a tried to forget are bruising me again. Every bit of pain is suddenly alive in me again as I remembered him and how he left me. BUT the greatest pain comes within me whenever I bump to the truth that I still love him.
Where are you now? Why did you leave me? Why did it have to be like this now? Do you even know that I am still here hoping to hear from you again? I keep on asking questions, but they are all left unanswered. I wish that he’s fine now, but on the other side of me, I am still wishing that he’s not totally ok and that he wants me back. BUT I guess I am only hurting myself more. The more that I hope, the more that it hurts.
Perhaps, that man will never be back again to the entirety of my life and I am just not accepting that fact. You see, there’s still a place in my heart that waits for him. There’s a space for him and I’m reserving it still. It pains me, it ruins me. Why can’t this love just die in an instant? Why can’t I totally forget him? I never knew that falling in love is as wack as this. What once made so happy is the very same one that makes you cry now.
Crossing you out of my heart is really hard so I’ll just wait for the time that it will mend on its own. Right now, maybe I just have to deal with the ache that I have to feel whenever I remember you, whenever our songs starts to play.
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m0ving on,its really hard to do,but wait,before we can do dat we must accept first na wala na cla,hnd babalik,wag nang umasa,after dat m0ving on will be easy!
haaay!bigla ko lang din sya naalala:), ganyan tlga ata sis, just feel the pain until it hurts no more..ka-relate lang!:)..i hope & pray that ur healed now!Godbless po!
Ang hirap talaga sa tagal ng panahon bakit hanggang ngayon nandito parin sa puso ko. Kahit anong pilit kong gawin iwaksi ang naramdaman ko at pilit huwag maramdaman.Ayaw talagang umalis:)Diko alam kong alam nya o hindi. Isarili ko nalang ito at di na umaasa.
Galing naman…. Kakarelate ako sa blog mo…sobrang painful pero mahal mo eh….bkit Kaya gnun?
i experienced same situation,, it really takes time to move on pag ngmahal ka kc ng totoo sometimes you can’t set your own limitations..
really sad story…you loved him so much dats y u’r still holding on. perhaps move on is a very simple word yet super hirap gawin.
ramdam ko ang sakit. I once been there and actually experienced that situation, heard a song actually a familiar song, then suddenly haunted by the memories and once again the SAD truth kept lingering on my mind… that I still actually love him.. amidst the facts that he hurt me for countless times… I am always wishing that someday, time will come that I can move on and face the fact that he is no longer mine… I wanted to be free.
I’m still on this stage, mas masakit lalo na during Xmas season, pati Xmas song nakakapagpa-iyak sa akin. Sana malampasan ko na ito…
Same here.. I know we can. Sana parang pisikal nalang na sugat ito na kapag naghilom ang sugat wala nang sakit kahit mag iwan ng peklat, dun mo lang maaalala at makikita na may pinanggalingan kang sakit.. mahirap alisin sa puso at isip..
Kung pwede nga lang iinom na lang ng gamot para maalis ang sakit ng nararamdaman…sigh!
Yes I know we can, matatapos din yan!
Good one…
ramdam ko ang sakit. I once been there and actually experienced that situation, heard a song actually a familiar song, then suddenly haunted by the memories and once again the SAD truth kept lingering on my mind… that I still actually love him.. amidst the facts that he hurt me for countless times… I am always wishing that someday, time will come that I can move on and face the fact that he is no longer mine… I wanted to be free..
luv dis!
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